As she watches the pianist go, the empty silence rings in Sophie's head even louder than her song had, echoing deeper and deeper until she can feel the bottomlessness of it. A shudder runs through her, but she pushes it away as she slowly bends to pick up the page that the other woman had dropped.
With a care the pianist hadn't used, Sophie carefully smooths out the page. She registers the name, of course, but her eyes only skip across that for a brief moment before coming to rest on the notes. What is Callista writing? Is it any good?
Then, finally,
finally Sophie sits down at the piano herself, and pulls out her sheaf of staff-lined paper and pencil case. She knows she can't recapture the full magic of that song that danced through her head earlier that morning…but she has to try.
Scrolling hastily past those still-taunting missed calls and texts, she finds the recording she made earlier on her phone, and hits play. Her voice sounds thin and tinny as it sings the melody back at her - but it is
there.
In a flash, the melody floods back into her mind, and Sophie plunges into it, fingers flying over the keyboard in endlessly iterating patterns. Her left hand feels its way towards the chords while her right hand scribbles down notation on the page; and she sings along under her breath, feeling the way the melody falls into place. Each harmony is a little ringing bit of
rightness in her mind, as if she were straightening a picture that had gone crooked on the wall.
And yet….it's still not enough.
Sophie can feel the emptiness where that rhythm was, the counterpoint, everything that made the song
pull at her. The melody is there, and now a few chords, too, and she will have to accept that that's all she can achieve right now. But she wants
more
Her fingers keep going after the melody has emptied her out. Scales, exercises, etudes, familiar patterns that soothe her and steady her.
Only after those can she work up the courage to really look at her phone, and to think about other things.
Still ignoring those unread and unheard messages, she searches instead for information on Callista. Does she talk about her work? What kind of person is she?
As she's scrolling through the pianist's social media, a new text comes in, mercifully replacing the one from Dane as her most recent:
Instinctively, she starts to type 'yes!' with a string of cheery emojis. But somewhere between the star and the sparkly heart her fingers hesitate, pause…and backspace.
She breathes out, feeling the shakiness in it, and types something else, much more slowly:
